Insane Wed. and Thurs.
I went to a bar downtown to see a band I know. I went with Ryan and Suzanne and a whole bunch of other theatre kids showed up. They all got drunk and were just having a good time, I totally didn't drink because I drove. The band started, and they all went to dance, leaving Suzanne and I alone at a table. Ryan came back and got her, leaving just me, which was fine, I was just grooving by myself anyway.
Tara, you know how much old men freak me out right? Some black drunk 40ish man comes and sits by me and takes my hand and will NOT let go. He's all hitting me up, and no one is noticing. Then he put his hand on my leg, and I just....shut down. I started shaking, and feeling like I was going to throw up, and I was menatlly screaming for ANYONE to come back, or look back, or call, or anything.
I saw a guy walking toward me, and he sat down and dropped his arm around my shoulders and said "Hey Abby, what's going on?" The black guy was like "Why don't the 3 of us just go on to your home?" And i said "Because I'm just barely 18." and he licked his lips and went "Mmmmmhmmmmmm" And I started shaking again, and the new guy grabbed my arm and "noticed" my bracelet and "wanted a closer look" and like, forcefully took my hand from the black guy's. The dude got a clue and left. I turned around and hugged the new guy. He introduced himself and asked if I was ok, and I said "honestly,no" and started crying (dumb, I know) and he just held on and let me cry for a little bit. The band got finished, and Ryan came back and was like "What's going on?" And Robbie totally went off on him and told him no way should anyone leave a pretty girl alone at a bar, especially if she's the youngest and it's her first time out. Ryan just said "She can handle guys" and I got pissed. They all helped the band get their stuff. While that was going on, the black guy came back and grabbed my arm and said "come out here with me" and started pulling me outside. Ryan saw, and grabbed me, and pulled me back in and said "Jeeze, what are you doing going home with him?" and then got mad when I teared up again.
We all went to the Kitch afterward, and ate. I rode with Robbie, and he MADE me wear his coat, b/c I had a tank top on and it was like 15. We walked in, and Ryan said "You could have asked" "I don't think I should have too." so he got all mad, and then really possessive.
Somehow politics came up, and they refered to Republicans as the dark side, and I said, "I'm not evil" Richard didn't know my political views, so he asked why. Ryan told him "Becuase Mommy and Daddy are, and she's not ready to think for herself." Which ended the conversation real fast becuase no one could believe he'd say that.
Robbie and I left. I didn't want to deal anymore, especially after the offer of going home with Ryan and Suzanne. We hung out all night, just chilled in my room and talked until 7:30 am
He's coming to see me either tonight or sunday. I'm excited. I'm finished with Ryan, he only ever wanted me to be his trophy, kinda like "Look what I have. You all want her, but cna't touch her." And I don't want to be that.
Robbie's awesome. He likes the smart me, the real me. He's a beautiful person, and he's really cool to chill with. even if we don't date, I've made an awesome friend.